Lonely...

I'm feeling very lonely lately.I'm feeling very lost.I've been very busy after Gino left us.Trying to get the girls ready for exam n i hope i wont disappoint him.Some how the girls just don't understand why i'm being so strict lately.There's not much laughing in the class.All i'm thinking is how to get the girls to get the best result.I'm not expecting 100% but at least try to is get distinction or a high merit.I've been explaining to the girls that i'm working so hard with them is to make Gino proud and i don't want to let him down.He works so hard for this exam and he wants to keep his standard high.I'll try my best Mr Gino and please please help n guide me.

Norma (Gino's elder sister) came to kuantan last saturday with his niece and other sister to clean up the studio and to sort out his personal belongings.At 1st Norma was complaining bout Gino because he he left her with bunch of stuff for her to clean.I was laughing because that is sooo 'Gino'.hahahha....I left the studio around 2pm to send the grade 6 CD to Seow Hui as she was teaching them.SHe told me she couldn't find the CD. I was like 'WTF!!' cos i used the cd last week to mark the character dance steps.Anyway i send the cd to her and then head back to the studio.They stop cleaning already by the time i got there.I guess they were very tired cleaning n packing up his stuff (rubbish)..haha.

We started talking and chatting.1st we talked bout the funeral and bout 1 of his best fren who died on wednesday and cremated on saturday.That is a month after Gino left us.After that Norma asked me what i want to do with the girls and studio.It seems that Mischa wants to keep the studio running because Zafriah and the other teachers asked them not to close it as his reputation and standard are well known in KL.I told them that i've already open my own studio 3 years back and it would be too difficult for me to run both studio.Another thing that i'm worried is the fees.Who is going to collect the fees? How much can i get for running his studio?How long am i suppose to stay there? Well i know that Norma is actually trying to help me.She's afraid if they close the studio i would be jobless and no where to go.Thank you Norma..

Time passed...we cried and laugh.I tried so hard not to cry whenever we talk bout him.It's very difficult...they cried too.After awhile we stop chatting bcos the wanted to go to the pet store to buy some food for Pepito ( Gino's precious little for legged ugly face dog) haha..that is what he called Pepi.haha.I went down with them and then before i go Norma gave me a hug n i started to cry again.Oh god...i hope nobody saw me.I look awful...

My eyes are bit swollen and tired.Slept 3am last nite i got up at 9.30am.I thought i could sleep until 11am but my room is so hot.Got up,make a cup of coffee,listen to the music i've downloaded and then out with mom to buy some stuff.. time to sleep now.This hot weather makes me very extremely tired and i have migrain too!! I hope tomorrow will be a better day...Charnita's class tomorrow! OH MY GOD! wish me luck n god bless me.Gino please give me strenght to teach this girl..

Another busy day.

It's just another busy and super hot day.Started work late but it feels like i've been working for days non stop.Today i only teach 3 classes which is all pre primary.It felt like 30 pre primary because all of them are so hyper.

Received lots of hugs from the girls and they are so sweet.Luvena is as sweet as honey but after awhile she was complaining that i didn't praise her enough.After the class she went to her mommy and complained to her.She said she doesn't want to come to class anymore.When her mommy asked her why,she said the teacher didn't give her stickers and we both laugh.She is so cute..

My class over at 9pm and i head straight home.I on the aircond,took my bath n now waiting for my darling to bring me my dinner.

Tomorrow is going to be a long long day.Like usual,i'm suppose to pick Gino at 1.30pm at the bus station,drop him at the hawker stall near the market to buy food and then head to studio.After that he will ask me to come early to sort out some stuff that we ordered but it's not going to happen anymore because he is in heaven now.Oh how i miss this old man!