Sick sick sick

Been sick for almost a week.

1st was throat infection,then followed by fever and lastly cough.I hate coughs..!

Been coughing like a bloody dog since last Sunday after drinking fresh coconut juice.

I think i might be too stressed with works and my body is giving me a sign to tell me to stop and relax.Gino has high expectation on the exam girls and i'm trying my best to fulfill his dream by keeping his standard high.I hope i can do it.I'm trying my very best.Gino please help me and guide me.I can't do it alone..I need u!

Lonely...

I'm feeling very lonely lately.I'm feeling very lost.I've been very busy after Gino left us.Trying to get the girls ready for exam n i hope i wont disappoint him.Some how the girls just don't understand why i'm being so strict lately.There's not much laughing in the class.All i'm thinking is how to get the girls to get the best result.I'm not expecting 100% but at least try to is get distinction or a high merit.I've been explaining to the girls that i'm working so hard with them is to make Gino proud and i don't want to let him down.He works so hard for this exam and he wants to keep his standard high.I'll try my best Mr Gino and please please help n guide me.

Norma (Gino's elder sister) came to kuantan last saturday with his niece and other sister to clean up the studio and to sort out his personal belongings.At 1st Norma was complaining bout Gino because he he left her with bunch of stuff for her to clean.I was laughing because that is sooo 'Gino'.hahahha....I left the studio around 2pm to send the grade 6 CD to Seow Hui as she was teaching them.SHe told me she couldn't find the CD. I was like 'WTF!!' cos i used the cd last week to mark the character dance steps.Anyway i send the cd to her and then head back to the studio.They stop cleaning already by the time i got there.I guess they were very tired cleaning n packing up his stuff (rubbish)..haha.

We started talking and chatting.1st we talked bout the funeral and bout 1 of his best fren who died on wednesday and cremated on saturday.That is a month after Gino left us.After that Norma asked me what i want to do with the girls and studio.It seems that Mischa wants to keep the studio running because Zafriah and the other teachers asked them not to close it as his reputation and standard are well known in KL.I told them that i've already open my own studio 3 years back and it would be too difficult for me to run both studio.Another thing that i'm worried is the fees.Who is going to collect the fees? How much can i get for running his studio?How long am i suppose to stay there? Well i know that Norma is actually trying to help me.She's afraid if they close the studio i would be jobless and no where to go.Thank you Norma..

Time passed...we cried and laugh.I tried so hard not to cry whenever we talk bout him.It's very difficult...they cried too.After awhile we stop chatting bcos the wanted to go to the pet store to buy some food for Pepito ( Gino's precious little for legged ugly face dog) haha..that is what he called Pepi.haha.I went down with them and then before i go Norma gave me a hug n i started to cry again.Oh god...i hope nobody saw me.I look awful...

My eyes are bit swollen and tired.Slept 3am last nite i got up at 9.30am.I thought i could sleep until 11am but my room is so hot.Got up,make a cup of coffee,listen to the music i've downloaded and then out with mom to buy some stuff.. time to sleep now.This hot weather makes me very extremely tired and i have migrain too!! I hope tomorrow will be a better day...Charnita's class tomorrow! OH MY GOD! wish me luck n god bless me.Gino please give me strenght to teach this girl..

Another busy day.

It's just another busy and super hot day.Started work late but it feels like i've been working for days non stop.Today i only teach 3 classes which is all pre primary.It felt like 30 pre primary because all of them are so hyper.

Received lots of hugs from the girls and they are so sweet.Luvena is as sweet as honey but after awhile she was complaining that i didn't praise her enough.After the class she went to her mommy and complained to her.She said she doesn't want to come to class anymore.When her mommy asked her why,she said the teacher didn't give her stickers and we both laugh.She is so cute..

My class over at 9pm and i head straight home.I on the aircond,took my bath n now waiting for my darling to bring me my dinner.

Tomorrow is going to be a long long day.Like usual,i'm suppose to pick Gino at 1.30pm at the bus station,drop him at the hawker stall near the market to buy food and then head to studio.After that he will ask me to come early to sort out some stuff that we ordered but it's not going to happen anymore because he is in heaven now.Oh how i miss this old man!

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24th March 2009,

Today is my monthly anniversary with my boyfren.V r stuck for almost 4 years..4 YEARS!!!
V r suppose to go out for dinner and unfortunately my dear boyfren is not well.Poor thing...haha~Oh how wicked!!! How could i laugh when my dear boyfren is suffering.

Everybody is asking when i'm getting married.I'm so fed up with that question.I hate to think bout it.Y do ppl get married when u can easily divorce.Wat does marriage mean to u ppl?? Staying together with ur 'boyfren' and can officially 'PLAY TOY'??HAve babies together??TO tel the whole world that he/she belongs to u? I honestly tell u that I DON'T TRUST MARRIAGE! Pls don't ask me y cos it's hard to explain....

Now i'm at home feeling bored,bloat,blue and blahh....!!
That's all for now.I want to rest...

My 1st blog..

Well this is my 1st time blogging or whatever u call it.I'm not very good with words or i might have spelling mistakes so to those who r reading this please forgive me and please dun laugh at me ok.Hehe..
Today is Friday the 13th 2009,4.13pm.I created this account and writing at my ballet teacher's studio.The weather is so very hot and i'm so very sleepy!! I'm kinda blur now and i don't really know what to write.
Now i'm waiting for my next grade4 girls to come .Well they are not really my students,they are my teacher's student.I'm only here to give them their double class.I'm teaching this class for free because my teacher forced me to take this class.Sometimes i feel that he is using me,example-He ask me to take all his class when he don't feel like coming or when he has function in his club.When he wants a double class for the girls he will ask me to take because he is here only on Wednesday and Thursday and sometimes Friday.He make me teach all his double class and he collect the fees for himself.Every Wednesday i HAVE to go the bus station to pick him up and send him to the bus station on either Thursday night or Friday morning.I just have to do all this without complaining because i need his help to get my RAD (Royal Academy Of Dance) Teacher's certificate.
He has this very weird temper and very stubborn.His students are so afraid of him including me!If he is in a bad mood u better not do anything wrong.Sometimes even u are not wrong he will scold u for no apparent reason..He calls ppl stupid and bodoh,i hate it when he call student that.Poor little innocent girls...
Actually he is not that bad.He always taught me to be nice to students and sometimes when a student wants to stop because of financial problem he will ask her to continue dancing and he will not charge her fees.That is so nice of him.God bless your kind and generous heart...He is the one who gave me the opportunity to teach in his studio and he helped me when i just started teaching.Once i started to teach i slowly understand it is not easy to become a good teacher.There are so many problem that i need to face.1st are parents,they can be very very annoying and pain in the a**! 2nd are devils reincarnate(naughty students).Haha...
Ok i think i better stop here.Don't want to bore u with me complaining non stop...hehe.Will be back soon and take care all...MuakXXXxX